Moments of realisation

Rays of realisation come through difficulties and tests.

The day my son had an emergency appendicitis operation, was a moment of self control and a moment of awareness. A moment to apply all I have learnt spiritually, to good use.

As a seeker of my soul journey, from an early age, wondering what life is all about, I ventured through many areas of learning, was given many tests, which as an open minded and positive thinking individual, I sifted the good from the bad, over came many challenges to improve the quality of self and life.

I remember, before full dawning of the awakening of self, I did go through a big test when at the stage of late pregnancy with my last child, I fell very sick and had to be admitted in hospital. I could not breathe, and the baby’s and my heart rate escalated, I thought I was dying. In my life, I thought I was dying many times. When I was recovering, about a week later, my other two sons, at ages 4 and 1 , were also admitted into hospital , one had had an epilepsy fit from high fever and the other was infected by dengue. These two were poked and prodded everyday with needles, taking blood tests and having infusions. Technology and medicine have helped mankind recover from diseases fast, but pregnant mothers with two sick sons, feel at that moment, very helpless. I nearly had a breakdown, almost gave up on everything. I felt I was surely going mad! I couldn’t understand how much “bad luck” I was having in this new country.

I came from a developed country and relocated to this developing country, bringing children whose immunity system did not support the tropical diseases that were still rampant. Thank God, by the grace of Allah Ta’ala, we have survived now, eight years later and the children are healthy and strong.

Yet, at this time of my son’s emergency surgery, I couldn’t help but reflect on him, his life from a baby till eleven years of age; while holding on to his special ted, sitting on the floor, in the corridor just outside the operating rooms, how much this son has gone through in such a short space of time. In the preparation room, I waited with him, tears rolling down my face uncontrollably, I tried not to be worried, after all it was a simple operation. Yet, no mother can see any of their children in pain or suffering. He was nervous and acted so brave, yet his hear beat was increased and his hands clammy. He said, “Mama, it’s okay. I am fine, I’ll be alright. Don’t be so worried, why don’t you go outside and relax.” I thought it was wise, rather than make him feel worse, I did as he suggested. I left him for about twenty minutes, to compose myself and come back in, to see if he had been sent in the operating theatre yet, but as I looked in I saw him , entertaining himself with the great imagination that he has, waiting for his turn. As soon as he saw me, his face lit! Like a relief, not to be left alone. ALAS, IT WAS HIS TURN, HE SMILED AND WITH GREAT PRIDE I HAD, WHISPERED “I LOVE YOU. SEE YOU SOON. IT WILL BE OKAY.”

All memories of him, kept me, huddled by that exit door, with special ted, Flank, as my companion. We sat there till he came out, nearly 2 hours. In meditation, and keeping an eye on his soul, while he was under anesthetic, a mother for her son. The strength of love surpasses any other. It made me aware, that I have come a long way from the pregnant mother with two sick boys way back in 2004.

Thank you to Allah Ta’ala for sending me guidance and angel helpers.

Special thanks also to Alex, who slept by the entrance door, on the floor, keeping me company.

And gratitude to those who came in support and love. And to those who offered their support online.

Life is filled with love of great companions , we are grateful.

Love, Peace & Light ~Lorraine Nur~

The Mayan calendar and Doomsday!

FROM A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE, IT HAS BEEN REVEALED: The "Mayans" are a race from another dimension; lived here on the earth and took care of it. Came the human race and so they crossed back to their place, entrusting the earth to it's rightful inheritors. The responsibility of guardians were handed over. They may see and may help from where they are. Bermuda Triangle is a 'drop down" spot. I am not saying UFO. I  am saying "Beings"  The Mayan calendar! Tell me about the Mayan calendar. Is the world actually going to end on that last day? No, I am told. No, we made the calendar as a signal to mankind, because at this point the world, Earth will be suffering too much from mankind's inattentive carelessness, irresponsible actions which have been the cause of all the environmental issues and problems we face now. The polar ice is melting , the toxic waste in the sea, the hole in the ozone, the crashing planets and more. We fight, we kill, we hate, we ruin what heritage left have we? The Mayans... can only do so much to advise and show guidance from the dimension where space divided by time equals velocity plus energy. mankind , can we start to recuperate? will we be alright as a civilization? Will we survive our very own selfish acts against the earth, nature and ourselves? NO, NOT IF WE DON'T REALISE AND CARE ENOUGH! Realism is facing us. Borobudur have similar architectures and buildings. All seems to be so mysterious since they never had the technology to build accurately. So too the pyramids etc. It is not aliens but "JINN" meaning those not human but creations.Sent like angels , whose job description is to "bring" prayers of mankind to be heard and answered, to Heaven. Good JIIN  help and cooperate to look after all creation. All the mysterious symbols left on the earth surface? A signal and sign that mankind is not alone in all Allah's creation, yet being the ultimate creation. A questionable statement now!!! Allah sent the Al Quran. In it is a guidance. In it is a knowledge. In it is a balm. In it is the future. In it is the existence of mankind; before, now and after. All creation is vibrating with "ALLAH HU ALLAH" before, now and after. It is a healing mantra and healing energy from one who recites and practices, which spreads throughout , knows not religion, sees the pure heart of one humbled by it's powerful vibrations. One carries it within the heart and spreads it's light throughout the entire creation. Angels and spirit guides all know this sound, this vibration and rush to the call of one who is in unison with the breath, heart and soul mantra. I implore all mankind, to say this throughout the rest of your life and I pray with it, all Divine goodness and help will be at our service to renew our earth, land, seas and our existence. Nur Shufiya

Styles of LOVE

Tuesday, 01 September 2009 at 23:20 | The Experience of "Being In Love" Is Not The Same For Everyone
Not everyone experiences love in exactly the same manner.
Research has shown that love comes in several different forms or styles (see, Lee and Regan). For the most part, people experience love as a blend of two or three of the styles listed below. Essentially, people have different notions of what it means to "be in love."
Styles of Love:
Eros – some people experience love with a lot of passion, intimacy and intensity. Love based on Eros has a strong sexual and emotional component. People who experience love this way want to be emotionally and physically close to their romantic partners and they tend to idealize love. Such love is marked by passion as well as compassion (kindness and consideration). Eros is best viewed as romantic, passionate love - the type of love that creates excitement at the beginning of a new relationship.
Ludus – some people experience love as a game to be played with other people’s emotions. The goal or desire is to gain control over a partner through manipulation. People who experience love as Ludus like to have multiple love interests where they are in complete control. Lying, cheating and deception are common for people who experience love as Ludus – it’s all part of the game. For people who experience love as Ludus, it is satisfying to outwit a partner and exploit his or her weak spots (see, husband plays with my heart, who is likely to cheat, love fraud).
Storge – some people experience love as a gradual and slow process. When love is based on Storge, getting to know someone comes before having intense feelings for that person. Love based on Storge takes time, it requires genuine liking and understanding of a partner, and it develops slowly over time. Love based on Storge is often compared to the love that one has for a friend. In fact, people who experience love as Storge often fall in love with their friends.
Agape – some people experience love as care giving. Love is the overwhelming desire to want to take care of a partner - a parental or nurturing type of love. Love based on Agape is attentive, caring, compassionate and kind - a more altruistic or selfless type of love.
Mania – some people experience love as being out of control. Love is an overwhelming experience; it turns one’s life upside down and it results in a complete loss of one’s identity. Love based on Mania is crazy, impulsive and needy. People who experience love as Mania fall in love quickly, but their love tends to consume them. Love experienced as Mania also tends to burnout before it gets the chance to mature. Such love is often marked by extreme delusions, feelings of being out of control, rash decisions, and vulnerability. People who experience love as Mania are easily taken advantage of by people who experience love as Ludus.
Pragma – some people take a practical approach to love. Love is not crazy, intense, or out of control. Love is based on common sense and reason. People who experience love as Pragma tend to pick a suitable mate the way most other people make serious life decisions: picking a partner is based on careful consideration and reason. Practical concerns underlie this type of love.
The love styles listed above have also been linked to one’s style of attachment (see, Levy and Davis).
Eros and Agape are linked to Secure Attachment
Mania is linked to Anxious Attachment
Ludus is linked to Dismissing Attachment
Overall, when thinking about love and relationships, sometimes it helps to keep in mind that love does not always mean the same thing to everyone.

Role complications,ego based misunderstandings.

 

Some men have all the nerve to say they love you, make demands, make rigid rules, make arguments , create problems, forever negative, demand a schedule for intimate matters, then try to justify all rightful non-flexible principles knowing that if they would only be patient and show tolerance because of a better outcome, knowing full well the complications involved, would suddenly stop everything, with full knowledge of the certain predicaments and outcomes, and frozenly shun and ignore women , because they feel that it's been enough till now, we'll just move on. Thanks it's been great. People like these are better off dead for they are not human and have no feelings and aren't concerned about anyone but themselves. These people are in denial and ought to realise that one day, they will be compensated with the same. How can a man, who is supposed to be the protectors and charges of women, who want to "own" women, who want and need women, behave so selfishly, so egoistic and so hateful, but in a cool, calm and collected way.? How? It is not human, I guess people like these have shelved their souls into a cave and sleeping till the time to awaken is summoned. How can any man, in his right state of mind justify an extreme decision all because they can't tolerate not being the main attraction, when responsibilities are the reasons for lack of time and energy for doting on his self esteem.? How? Thursday, June 26th, 2011

The search for a soulmate

 

He exists. We have found each other. I am the Feminine, he is the Masculine. We searched through our lives to finally be ready to discover us. In the time of my life process, discovering me, who I am and then finally realizing that I am just an entity travelling in this world within this physical body. I once had an out of body experience, in where I learnt about the ability to feel unconditional love, that I saw my physical body where I had laid to rest but I was above it. So, I understand that the soul, the energy does not die, it lives, it feels, it thinks and it never extinguishes. That is who we really are. The emotions we have within our hearts are the most important factors for our life here and later. The place we return to is full of only unconditional love and radiant Light. We are part of this Light. We are one with this Light. We came and we return to the Light. Once, I experienced this special phenomenon, it changed my life and perception of existence in this world. That is why I say I am a spirit in human form. As goes the theory of twin flames states, read up on it; I have started to research it’s concept and want to verify that the theory can exist. I am experiencing it myself; with someone who is so like me in so many ways, I say it is me. Someone I have abundant and unconditional love with and for, that I need him in my life and without him I will not exist. Without him I will not be whole. He is my love, my life, my energy and my beacon. He is my breath , my companion , my lover, my friend, my partner, my king , my husband, my soulmate and he is my twin soul, twin flame….based on the theory and available information. We always want to be together, yet not monopolizing. We always want to remain in each others’ presence, yet not domineering, we always want to see and touch each other but not possessing, our conversations go on forever, we tend to see everything from the same perspective, we laugh together, I feel his emotions, he feels mine, he can’t bear to see me cry and when I cry I am never afraid to show my true self. I am without ego in his company, he is balancing me in every way, he enhances my being and I his, I feel so energetic I don’t need or want to sleep. I feel that sleep steals my moments with him. I sleep, I dream and feel him. When I am physically alone, he is there beside me. We communicate through the soul not just physically. This is an experience I had this morning. I felt him beside me, I heard his voice, the next minute I see, he sends me an sms. Even the lines on our palms are the same. We have had many similar events occur in our lives yet we are born in different parts of the world. As a child , I had a fall and gashed my chin. I had stitches and till today I have a scar. My twin has the exact scar in the exact place but he never fell or had stitches, he was born with this mark. I had dreams of him 4 times in six months before our meeting. The dreams had indications and premonitions and when we met, the indications were his reality, like his next designation and the kiss. The kiss in reality could only be the one in the dream, it is exclusively his style and his kiss. When we met the energy was extremely strong as if we were two suns. Since we met, we have not been apart, except for weekends due to external circumstances and responsibilities. The bonding is occurring, elevating and increasing in powerful levels. The love is deep and unconditional. There were also many signs to reflect that the meeting was not coincidental; like the picture of the 2 dancers on the room wall which was exactly the same as the one on my web wall, the love of the colour green and how we were wearing the same colour on the day we met. The physical act of lovemaking transcends all aspects of the physical and we are charged with an incredible energy in the union almost as if surrendering to the entire Universe and being one with it. It is worship and blending of aura, energy and of souls, reaching a state of intense euphoria. It also feels like we are continuing a union, a life of being parted and continuing where we left off. Nothing seems strange about us. We are unique together. We extol each other. We take on a different look when we are one…. We seem younger, we look younger; our energy manifests in everything we do together or physically apart. We have the same life purpose of healing society; helping mankind; the same vision to make the world better. He is a man with vision in a profession which has been pathed to be a leader and make changes. He is intellectually capable and wanting. I am spiritually inspired to make changes in the world, to spread unconditional and healing love, connecting with those who have the same mission and vision. As my out of body experience was very clear, I was told that I have to go back because my mission isn’t complete yet. I am inspired by my meeting my twin. We have the same life principles. I once made a mistake before meeting my twin, which when I related the story to him, it antagonized him dreadfully, in normal circumstance he would have been very angry and in that situation I faced it would have normally made me very antagonistic as well, but, we found that we re-acted opposite to what we would normally have with others. It impacts the fact that twin flames do have a great capability of resistance to what normally would have been an ego based and eccentric outlook to a clash of values. The mistake was made and I felt ashamed, but what hurt me most was, although I regretted it happened and he said that he regretted it too. I thought to myself how sad I am that he could feel my regret but that I felt he regretted t more. I feel the power of unconditional love transformation. My tears flow uncontrollably in his presence without the ego and pride that is normally within me. My research on this theory continues as I journey my life now with a new discovery.

Psychic but….

 

I don't tell the future I don't read minds. I don't do bad magic. I don't do spells. I don't know how to tell If you will get your promotion or not Or win your cases Or what will he or she do next I don't know when the next time that thief will steal again Or when you will marry or die. What I can tell you is that you will one day die And so I can remind you of how to prepare for death By first killing self. In that I mean lose the ego and pride Which is as high as the sky And don't sit too high up that ladder, cos when it breaks And you fall, it's going to hurt! What I can say to you is remember Allah Ta'ala constantly Free your mind from worldly clutter And rearrange your life principles and beliefs To inculcate goodness, kindness and loving Trust, Friendship and Honesty What I can also tell you is that The angels are always at your side Be there when you need a hand or a friendly nudge, to push you through this life This world is no Paradise And Hell could be now Yet with all this in mind , I make a stand I will surely hang in there For I do now understand the bits and pieces Of this whole jigsaw life In is no parade or fashion show But it sure will help for us to see, that the main event and in the big huge screen Is one person called me. So, my dears when the time is nigh When the time draws close to the end Be sure to say in your heart and thank you Allah An Astaghfirullah And the last breath inhale and exhale In full belief in ALLAH HU ALLAH. Lorraine Nur Shufiya

A Look Beyond

 

I look into your eyes and look beyond I see him that I love I look beyond your circumstance I see the one I love Look beyond, I see within The one hidden from sight I look beyond, I feel The one I seek I look beyond our differences I seek to honour love So, I look beyond our faults and I love the pure soul How do I phrase it Eloquence is not enough To look beyond the feeling Is not an emotion any more It is the circumstance, an experience A look beyond has developed A beyond the boundaries, freedom A soul reconnection A walk beyond the darkness A look beyond the emptiness A look beyond the void Discovery, produces synergy Light , love and you.

Gullible is one thing, stupid another

by Lorraine Branson on Friday, 24 December 2010 at 02:55

The Buddha has said, "If a man can find a suitable and understanding wife and a woman can find a suitable and understanding husband, both are fortunate indeed." The way a woman plays with her hair reveals so many intimate details. Dear old sage, mentor in worldly matters. How a pure heart deems services in marriage so calmly. Full of rational interpretation, not upholding only justice but love too. In so many denominations, we find many advice on what a good marriage consists of. My personal belief is LOVE will overcome and fulfill all needs, wants and desires.  Based on moral values, sound respect, conjoined motivation of a successful union. Trust is a father figure in a marriage where a man feels a need to protect his "own". Protection and defense of his dominion. That in a normal marriage is fundamental. Where positions in the marriage is a normal path, not needed to be processed as set rules and regulations. A flow based on a mutual understanding. "Never lose hope no matter how bad things get; no matter how depressing, no matter how negative. Rise above it all. You may make mistakes but at least you gave your best in all sincerity. Love is given freely, don't take advantage of it." ~ Lorraine Nur~ "Wolves in sheep's' clothing. Gullible is one thing, stupid another. Sometimes one makes choices based on false pretences hence a liable mistake. If every thing was clear cut, directed and wrapped; all you'd get is a commodity not an asset." ~ Lorraine Nur ~ Hence, coexisting as life partners in a marriage does need to be based on non-bias principles and values. As my own belief structure and choices guide me and I as a woman know where I stand , what my responsibilities are and where my priorities lie. "I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naïve or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman."  ~Anaïs Nin~ In the above quote, I have the opinion that all women in a marriage do depend on this character and will to have this, although never failing as woman when becoming a wife. "Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men. " ~Joseph Conrad~"No woman is required to build the world by destroying herself."  ~Rabbi Sofer "One of the things about equality is not just that you be treated equally to a man, but that you treat yourself equally to the way you treat a man.  ~Marlo Thomas" How uncanny that some men do have the innate ability to have a moral conscience that they can be a difficult species and admit it. Although, how many while knowing that they are difficult, try to change their ways for the better and protect something which is worth saving? I often feel and advice against name calling or offensive ,derogatory language in the relationship of husband and wife. In that, no matter how angry one may be, it is totally unacceptable to repeat insults. Words have a cutting edge. The mind filters hurtful verbal abuse, but can never erase it. Words spoken in random anger leave scars. It can affect a woman's self-esteem which does say much about her as a gentle creature in need of love, care and nurturing. It would be quite official to say cows were made for milking and tugging, not women. "The beauty of a woman is in her heart not just her body. SeX: Such a taboo subject when I was growing up. I was never given straightforward advice and learnt many things the "hard" way. I do not begrudge my parents at all, they did their best in all matters raising me to become the woman I am today. In matters of sexual relations within a marriage. I love romance. I love the "play". I would not be bored with someone I love and I would anticipate great sex with him as well. I feel when sex is love based, through understanding, communication, openness and acceptance, one can have a wonderful time in sex with one's spouse. On the other hand, when sex becomes a ritual, an act of responsibility with only one partner dominant/active or with only one expected to make all the effort, it can become a tedious chore, no matter what. Sex based on love and not lust is long lasting. Fantasies in a marriage can be a healthy ,adventurous and is normal. Frivolity, intimacy, romance, nonjudgmental and commitment is also appreciated when considering a happy, healthy and long lasting marriage. Women and men's roles differ in a marriage. Women who are mothers also have their "roles" to play as wives and nurturers. When demands exceed supply, we have problems. When rules are set as to intending a time spent together and everything needs to be agreed upon before commencing is unusual and not normal, according to me. Finding time in our hectic schedules for love making is good. But when it becomes tactical, then that is bad. Tactic to create vying and jealousy have no place in a healthy and romantic marriage. Romance is a necessary ingredient. Positive verbal appreciation and showing appreciation is too. Say " I Love you" a lot, it is sweet and reminds one that the affection is never forgotten. Women from  different cultures adhere to husbands differently, although never losing respect of him as the head of the family. Some women live in marriages because they have to, some women suffer in marriages because they feel the sacrifice is worth it, some women choose to be removed from a negative marriage and some women simply accept the course their marriage takes. Definitely, every action has a re-action, consequence and risks. As long as women are happy to be in whatever marriage status or situation they find themselves, love is most truly the key to its success. Men who have a keen eye for the women, who have the lust pleasure , most certainly do not fit the profile of perfect husband, no matter how much responsibility they claim to be able to convey and carry out. Negativity can come in the form of cynicism, criticism, whining, attacking, pessimism, discontent, perfectionism, and hyperintensity. All of these behaviors can push people away, including your spouse. "Research indicates you can get mad as hell or avoid conflict altogether. But the positivity must outweigh the negativity by five to one." Source: John Gottman, Nan Silver, "What Makes Marriage Work?", PsychologyToday.com, Mar/Apr 1994. In conclusion, words have no good effect if words are from poor choice in vocabulary. Women are by nature sensitive to words, hardened and not showing feeling kills love. Hence, taking care without many demand, making the journey together will be happy, successful and long, if in truth and honesty everthing started. Partners feel love in sex. ~Lorraine Nur~

The future is not clear, Indonesia.

 

In the middle of the night and the air is nice and cool I listen quietly to a discussion of the country All reflective on how will this country advance Who will be strong and intelligent enough to bring this nation forward Who will care enough to carry a legacy To unfold changes, to modify, to improve Everyone is waiting, a wait that is a waste Personally, I want to feel a change I see a need for a radical movement A forceful launch of a future plan The leader clutches his fading shadow He puts on a plastic face To conceal his confusion As well as his concern For time passing quickly Time is an expensive tool Used unwisely will never be retrieved So, time for talk, time for movement, time for a change. Improvising a system is not what this nation needs This nation needs a just and caring soul. I wonder who will take up the challenge? Lorraine Nur

Remembrance & Gratitude

Life is all about making a difference. Life is about gaining lessons for improvement. We were not born to create mischief and troubles. We were born to discover that we are perfect creation of the Most High who loves us. We were created to worship Him.

“Remember Me and I shall remember you.”

To participate in universal remembrance of Allah Ta’ala, we as one whole would never hurt each other. We would lose all ego and pride. We will support and nourish each other , wholly for His sake. We would banish all differences, we would merge as one, humanity. The variable difference among us is, faith. How we show devotion to His Oneness, never associating partners with Him and asking only from Him, to Whom we all return. Therefore, what and why are we all fighting for?

Where is forgiveness when we hope for His forgiveness? Where is our showing mercy and benevolence, when we hope for His? Where is our gratitude, when we forget to offer thanks and hope for better or more?

Weren’t we endowed with intelligence as a higher species? To think and be rational, to use the heart’s light to over power misdemeanors and wrong doings? Have we forgotten how it is like to be afflicted by diseases that we allow the disease of the heart to over power commonsense?

What’s the use of manipulation when we become His humble slaves , we offer everything back to Him? What are we supposed to achieve after all we have comes from Him when we make efforts, we either succeed or not?

Choices are ours to make, decisions are His. He offers to us palettes of blessings , we need only pick. He offers us the entire Universe to enjoy, without any payment, we need only appreciate and give thanks. We do not make the trees grow that offer us our breath of life, yet we tear then down these foundations of the Earth, so crucial to survival, for our own self needs, and the air we pollute for our selfish end desires, to grow and accumulate wealth. He did not charge us for these blessings, we are meant as caliphs on Earth to secure and maintain His generosities. So, which of His blessings do we give thanks for?

Who among us now, in these end years, ever remember Him…..we are so disturbed by gaining wealth and paying debts, we cheat and steal without knowing, under the financial system of repayments,mortgages and debt!

We are avaricious in needing to accumulate materialistic honour, we forget our mission of life and death. What legacy are we leaving our children? We offer education, encourage independence and we support all worldly efforts but, when and how, are we preparing them for death and Hereafter. Are we helping them in remembrance by being role models as older teachers , carers and parents? Are we indoctrinating in them FEAR based values towards The ONE or LOVE based ones? Are we teaching them that He is God, that worldly matters aren’t?Insignificant are we, when compared to His abundant LOVE for us, we need feel shame on being so obtuse and unappreciative.

May we all remember HIM , in whose Hands our survival and life depend on and to Whom we shall all return. May the windows of Repentance remain open till all come back to realisation and beg forgiveness for all follies.

Humbly in peace, love & light

~Lorraine Nur~

The love process and endurance

How often do we go through the process of love, falling in love and loving?

With that many people in the world, are we meant just for one, when all fails, we have to keep silent and alone? I have a difference of opinion about the search for that special one, the other half, the soul mate forever, the twin soul or flame.

During my short research and acting the roles which I found my path being led towards, I was always sure that “he”was the one. The consistent emotions we feel during a new meeting with a beloved, goes through pangs of challenges, and abundance of joys. In balance of life, we receive so many blessings through relationships. Marriage always the one factor that is supposed to bind people forever, seems to be a frigid and rigid law, when enforced as a till death do us part appendix. But, for all that it’s worth, for those who find themselves in confusing relationships, passing through each mate  in their life journey; would it then not seem rational to consider, that they were meant to meet for a reason and then left when it was over, also for a progressive reason?

Each love brings it’s own graces and blessings. The percentage of the love seems to elevate, perhaps with being more aware of what to avoid, knowing what to expect, learning to keep love as an open book, filling the chapters with all the experiences and one day, perhaps, one day, getting it “right” and keeping the eternal bliss of Heaven’s gift, safely in our lives.

We dare to take the risk of heartaches and pains, for love is not just the bed of roses, it initially spreads out to be. It welcomes us joyously, it unfolds , it stimulates, it revives a melancholy heart, it emerges as a bird of phoenix and creates rainbows after the rain.

Then the storms begin, to pressure the relationship, because life has imparted all it’s complexities and complications on the weary soul, responsibilities and the demands of society, impacts on every relationship, new or old, relationships which need to grow and transform over time. With new loves in mature ages, this is confounding, it implicates that two must forge their existence with all the traits of history through their individual lives. The room for making mistakes is small as no one wants to continue to make difficulties, yet there is a love connection. Taken into perspective, looking at the desired aim and end goal, I think that the love felt must encourage a worthy and happy existence as two becoming one.

With restricted caution, measures we take, baby steps we make, we can take our time, not rush, about LOVE; as if it’s going to disappear…if it does , then it was not right in the first place, and if in the time taken or needed, a good , solid relationship based on all aspects of love is built, we can hope for a happy ending, after all. So, no rush, never lose hope, always remain positive, affirm what love is in your life, keep happy and attract the like.

For everyone, there is someone.

Love, peace & light

 

~Lorraine Nur~

Running away

I am a fleer! I admit it! I cannot tolerate any discomfort to my soul. Anything that gets me down, anything that starts to upset me and there seems no solutions , just endless arguments , gets me …fleeing!

What I mean by running away, is not because I am afraid to face issues. I just have issues with negativity. To totally eradicate it, I flee from circumstances that have no viable solutions. I then have the “stop fleeing “ button, when I see there can be a solution. I know it will take energy and time to produce the desired positive effect, than I take a deep breath, say a prayer to fortify my soul, and start slowly to rebuild.

Nothing is actually difficult to compromise, when we shelve ego. Seriously, when we learn to agree to disagree, respect others’ views, learn to appreciate and understand others’ concepts, we learn to achieve dynamic peace in life.

There are many times, this is unachievable, and with people that really matter, we can come close by showering love and acceptance , for that is who they are. Different personality traits may clash, ideas may clash, still when we learn to respect, we can accept and conform, as long as it does not go against good principles, values and morals.

Toleration is an important ingredient to acquire. Imagine being in a shop, where we can buy these characteristics, life would be so simple. There are some things money just can’t buy! So, we have to learn and apply self improvement methods.

Now, being a fleer, is not a bad thing. It avoids so many conflicts and in some cases and is a big win overall. One thing I found though, as a fleer of negative situations, I am in total control of myself, so I flee by choice. Inadvertently, what makes me choose to flee, are acts of disrespect, rudeness, inability to comprehend,selfishness, choosing to be difficult and the like; which create an uncomfortable feeling in my heart.I actually get so caught up in trying to understand the “why’s” till I cause myself to have shortness of breath and a dull pain in my chest! I flee when I face adults with these characteristics and I have no problem evicting them from my personal space, for health reasons!

In the case of children, I cultivate a better habit by facing the challenges of moulding better adults by showing better options ,words and motivating better speech with intelligence and treating them as little adults with their own rights.I find it most satisfying when we succeed to overcome those negativities, with love, communication, understanding and mutual respect. As a role model, I do hope that will create better adults in the future.

How then as adults did we become so rigid? Something to reflect on.

Peace, Love & Light

~Lorraine Nur~

Balancing acts in life

If someone enters your life and remains complacent for too long, then it’s time to review, what it’s all about.

There are so many roles we all play in our lives, the position of responsibilities. At times, we have to juggle so many things that are happening all at once, it can get very inundated and tiring. Too much thinking can cause so much stresses and difficulties. Perceptions differ and so much is expected of oneself, when one attempts to do everything to please everyone else.So, with that in mind, where is there time to have relationships of quality?

In my situation, where so many failed relationships may reflect hugely on my inability to play all my roles; having been divorced and separated from my children, an ordeal I live with every day. It’s hard trying to juggle an extended relationship outside the scope of my children’s lives. Having tried to rebuild a life with a partner, because as a woman I do have various needs for companionship, I found it extremely difficult playing my role as a mother and then as a wife in another household. Having to go back and forth from my children’s home and then to my husband’s home, was a very taxing lifestyle. As I have limited and supervised access to my children, this being the case, I have had various attempts at trying to re-marry , with failing every attempt, only because a husband does have his role and it is impossible to ask anyone to understand and accept my role as mother to children who are not allowed to come to my home.

This is a hindrance for me having any hope of ever discovering a soul mate, it would have to be an angel who would encourage and support, let alone understand, my complicated life style, at this point in my life. Therefore, to have anyone permanent in my life as a husband would be a miracle.

I have had to review a future with another before I can commit with all life’s complications and intricacies, I know what I would like and that perfection of family will not be attained, when there is no understanding and support. I found I allowed myself to dream about such happiness when in reality, there can be none for as long as I do not sacrifice the time needed to build a relationship. It takes it’s toll. I also found, that I open myself to pain and suffering with either situation having a need of some sacrifice. Most of the time this seems so unfair. I have been given case scenarios of how I can best lead a life of a woman under stressed and less than ideal circumstances, which if that person had the last ingredient I needed in his personality, I would have that achievement of perfection. Unfortunately, this is not to be so.

I need care and attention, every human does, it is a natural vital part of life, to share with another that one loves. Love, too easy a word to speak of, and difficult for most to carry out. What it means to love unconditionally, means giving of yourself, supplying the sustenance in relationships, without judging and demanding.

Humans are demanding and we need to learn that vitality of life which moulds us to become better souls journeying on this earth.

With all the pain and suffering we each endure , at different levels, may we be grateful that we will learn wisdom; with the hurt, may we learn fortitude, with the tears, may we be given patience.

~Love , peace & light~

Lorraine Nur

Be free

We are often foolish in love and love affairs. I was once taught that all could be reasonable as well as rational in matters of love, and I doubted it. I felt love was a beautiful feeling and falling in love would ultimately lead to fulfilling marital vows. That is a very naive assumption. Although that assumption would be based on prior conversations to the effect. Often, personalities differ in perception to what commitment is. Many times I have written and pondered on this subject. It has not made me any wiser in matters of love. I have been in and out of love so many times that with each failure, all I have gained is disappointment and hurt. To the point, I am almost not surprised any more. Yet, I shall never give up on love of lovers. For to allow the heart to pine and hurt, increases endurance and remain open to love, love affairs, romance and the like.
As each person we meet come into our lives for a lesson or a reason, the post consequence of a failed relationship is a grieving process, a momentary silence of the soul. It will be revived by the next soul love that comes along, that we shall have the flame of hope kindle once more. I am starting to believe that, it is an undying energy that has solely my signature on it, that travels through each potentially suited man, that the energy helps us to bond and grow, to a limit that is reachable of heightened senses, and that only with mutual consent will this energy flourish. Therefore, every suitable man that has a vested and sincere interest, will be helped by this unique energy force. That is probably why, most people in love have the sense of knowing each other. The chemistry called love, is an emotion which is triggered by the brain to conceive a union between two humans. The kind of love felt has gradations. It needs nurturing to expand and bloom. It cannot be one sided, there should be no hesitation, no pauses or insecurities. There should be no misconceptions neither any doubts. Love is never wrong when in the heart, it feels good, comfortable and healthy.

Ever so often, we fall blindly but allow the self to lead with intuition as a guide. When we prepare life for loving and lovingness, words of doubt never leak from the lips, contradicting words of amour at other times, consistency is infallible. Difficulties arise, but when two souls determine a joint path, the love overrides all else. I am hurting, am in pain, in the depths of my heart, I have a craving and longing for that soul love, energy based, intuition guided, angel delivered soul mate for a partner on Earth. I may have to send the right frequencies of call and support out to the antenna of the beloved who is also seeking me. For every new candidate there is new hope, the past is not viable because it has proven itself incompatible. We need to move forward. Not be stuck in manipulation and dreams alone. Imagination with hope then a drastic fall with disappoitment. The road on towards a love is rough. Everyday brings new hope, new journeys, new wisdom and maybe one day finally, the new love. When one finally meets this love , one shall know, it is said. Do consider that soul families are large and love is great, but only one is the real spouse.

 ~Lorraine Nur~

In life and death.

Tonight, I sit contemplating once again on life! Life with all the opportunities it presents.Life with all the sudden surprises and with all life also, finally having to end.

At the end of the day, we really don't have any knowledge about that unavoidable event called death.Everything else about life is truly based on personal choices. Nothing is forced. We all have the freedom of choice! Except in the case of death. In my choice of faith, which is comfortable for me to digest, this life is a one time affair. When it's time to go, we cannot negotiate.I am aware of making the best of my journey through, and to make the best of what I have NOW and that self improvement is a necessity for calm and peace of mind.I prefer not to have to re-live it all over and over again. Once is quite enough and to do my best for the sake of Allah Ta'ala is my aim. As my focus is to return in a state that my Creator is happy with.
I have a very dear friend whom I call Angel Hearer. He is fragile and delicate in his inner being yet strong physically and mentally. His soul is one of the sweetest I have ever come across in my life.Through a soul connection we have become almost as close as spouses can be.I feel him as he hears me, though we do not see or hear each other physically.He is real, not a figment of my imagination, still an invisible man reality. He hears and answers or does things that I pray for in the silence of my privacy.Therefore, he is my angel hearer. Through a rich spiritual and soul bond, we should like to make this a reality and never have to part, except by death. The reality of getting closer on a physical level is happening in stages, enjoying the connection and suffering the separation.Neither wanting to hurt but each hurting in a delightful pining. We know one day it will happen, we just don't know when and neither can we plan it. As it happens, Angel hearer seeks counsel from elders of the family for a positive acceptance of my presence by showing my photo and "introducing" me as future spouse candidate. One of the few he consulted , was a close uncle. I was introduced over the phone to a unique sounding man, whom I found warm and cordial.According to Angel hearer, this uncle did approve of me so much, he offered his spare , extraordinary house over the water for us to stay when I did come, which he hoped would be soon and that he would get to meet me. I was overwhelmed by his welcome and warm character. His dignified tone and pleasant sounding voice. I felt bonded. A week later, today, I hear he has passed on. I shall never get to meet uncle but I feel he knows I shall miss him. The night he died, I had a strange dream, in which I saw someone in pain, a crowd rustling around the person, in a dark setting with dim lights. Not long after, I hear a loud voice asking My Lord forgive us, forgive me. Soon after, I see a rider on a huge white steed coming, and then two riders, in a mountain scene, the same white horse , it's rider and another smaller brown horse and it's rider. They seemed like old friends reunited, they rode casually and calmly, muttering dialogue. The sun's gleam over the heads, light, and not long after, a gathering of people welcoming them with salutations to the Holy Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him, his family and companions.) I woke up suddenly from this clear dream vision at three in the morning, jotted the prayer of forgiveness. Later that morning, I received an sms to inform me of uncle's passing. I felt a mixed feeling, for I remembered the dream,which I felt was a vision of his passing, and that he was accompanied on his way home, by a profound soul. The dream impacted a huge rush of emotion, and I cried some melancholy tears. I may not ever meet, greet and kiss his hands in reality, and I feel I will miss him, but I also feel a great sense of closeness to this uncle who gave me his moral support and approval, which meant so much to me.
Another event, that the life presented was an inconvenient situation, which was created by a person with bad intentions.A very good friend and soul sister, helped me to help a friend, to give opportunity to improve life and to get away from a life of oppression. Five days after my sister decided she wanted to help, the anticipated reaction happened from a third party, and my sister under stress, had to check into hospital for treatment of stress. I felt so awful, yet and she was not at all upset with me, infact seeing her with her oxygen tubing made me cry! This sweet angel really took a risk to help and she did it sincerely, knowing full well she may have to deal with inconvenience. Her stoic principles on the rights of humans is what made her who she is today, one of the most caring and loving souls in my life.She is still determined to exhaust her resources to help another in need. This is incredible unconditional love for humankind. The character of a true Queen of Justice.
When I allow likeminded people to enter my life, they have been gems and pots of gold for me, cheering each other on, planning better futures, making no mistakes nor demanding. The friendship blossoms into more, and love is felt all around. There is happiness and smiles, sharing laughter and life, as free souls on this Earthly journey.
May we all be constantly blessed, and have a wonderful ending like uncle.
~LorraineNur~

The lures of the Java Sea, 1000 island experience.

The closest anybody on this Earth will ever get to recognising and appreciating God, is in Nature. The closest that we will ever feel His presence is in the seas. The closest we shall ever experience what it feels like to be in space where time is of no consequence is in the deep seas and oceans.

 

There we will experience the wonders of peace.

I ventured on my own , out into the seas, among the coral reefs. On my jetski, I explored all parts of the sea about 500m away from the beach, maybe even up to a kilometer. I dare say it was such an awesome experience, to be alone, with only the sea as my guide. The tide was coming up and the depths of waters were perfect for riding without having to be so mindful of hitting the huge boulders on the seabed. I determined the safe paths and went through all the waterways. The waves yesterday were more rough and bigger than normal, but that did not hinder my exuberance for adventure, the lone rider.

I was mesmerized as I absorbed the energy and wonders of the Java Sea. As I rode sometimes slowly looking below into the glassy waters, I noticed, seaweeds among the corals and rocks. When I went fast, I enjoyed the sea water, spraying into my face, the sunshine and the salty sea wind. I would pause for breaks, just to sit and enjoy wafting with the waves, lulling with the rhythm and basking in the sun. As I warmed in the rays, I would then , with excitement, plunge into the waters depths and swim with the currents and dive into the waves , as I cooled in the sea, and played with the “imaginary” guides of nature. As I snorkeled, I saw the waters churning around me as the waves were creating swirling motions and the sands of the bed were agitated.

The wonder of silence with only the murmur of ocean sounds. A most exhilarating moment.

I decide to pass through the calm channel, heading towards the sea outside of the protection of the coral reef. I could see that the waves were coming towards me half a meter high, and crashing on my jetski, I noticed how the winds blew against the direction I was heading. I tried to find an opening pass to head inwards towards some calmer waters but to no avail and the sea was overpowering. The sense of God’s presence and might overwhelmed me. I felt how a Titan might in the oceans’ depths, when it is about to storm. Instinctively, I decide to head back; turned my machine around and going with the flow of waves rather than against it, backtracking to safer waters, I sped up and as I did, a shoal of flying fishes came up from under the water, almost into my face, I screamed initially in shock, which quickly changed to peals of laughter; I was so thrilled at that one moment shared by nature! How amazing! How many times would that ever happen? The timing was perfect! It did not take long to come back to the safety and calm of the channel, leaving the immense sea for another calmer day.

I spent 95% of my island time, on and in the water. There were some visitors from China, on this trip. One of them did not have spare shorts, so he didn’t venture on the jetskis. He looked like he felt left out or yearned for a ride, still worried about not having a change of clothes.So, I asked him, “If I found you a pair, would you take the ride?” He answered ,”Yes!” So, I asked if anyone had any spare shorts. Les , a big Aussie, laughed and said, “Do you think he would fit in mine , Lorraine?!!” ahahahhaha… Neither did the kids have any. I remembered, I came with extra clothes, and the pants I had on when I arrived would be perfect. I had left my clothes folded on the window sill in the ship. I asked Dewi to get it. When she did, I asked her to give it to that man, the one wearing a red shirt! Luckily, she didn’t immediately because she could not hear me well, I suddenly remembered, that I had also very modestly, folded my lacy undies in the pants … hahhhhh….” Wait Dewi!!!” Did you check inside I yelled out, about 5m, from the beach from the water. She gave me a confused look while ruffling the trousers, “Oh dear!”, the lacy things could have popped out as she did so! I burst into a guffaw laughter, as she saw what was hidden and discreetly put the folded lacy black item into her pocket, and safely loaned my unisex pants to the little Chinese man , wearing the red shirt and specs. PHEW! I had a hilarious vision , that if had just taken them and changed he might have thought he had a choice! Ahhahahah…. if he was a cross dresser! Hilarious!

As it turns out, the sweet Chinese man , who look timid to me, was so grateful for the experience, which in his own words,” Thank you so much, You have given me an incredible experience, I have never been on a jetski before this and it was amazing! Thank you.” As he handed back , a set of dried borrowed black trousers, with a new gleam in his eyes and a huge smile.

The black lacies were discovered back where it was found!

On that jovial and humorous note.

May love, peace and light be forever in your lives.

~LorraineNur~

Men ,women and money.

Just a few days ago, I was so happy with positive outcomes.Happy to have friends helping friends in need.The true atmosphere of sincere friendship prevailing.We need to always be in a positive attitude and frame of mind to balance life with all circumstances.

I am always astonished when others choose to act in ways that make no sense, a lack of respect to commitment or playing with the definition of commitment from all levels. Why am I always faced with similar adversities within a circle of friends or acquaintances, that I initially perceive as suitable, a situational development exposes another side which repels and has a negative effect on me? I can't explain how it happens but when it does I get irritated enough to cut ties.I guess knowing what I want and need is vital to my balance in life.I have learnt, I need to be in control so this balance is what I share. Unfortunately for those that divide us by activating defense mechanisms and rebuttals, defying and misunderstanding.
Are there people who actually have an inbuilt program that they would seek to harness a person , then once latched on, proceed to thrive on the "need them" factor, to direct or manipulate? Do some people feed of this dependence of others on them?
In the beginning of any relationship, this trust factor is important as everything about how this relationship turns out depends on all variables of trust.

 
Future partners always discuss major life issues, one especially of finances. It is not rude to ask. Life is based on reality. Money issues are real. Lack of it, creates disturbance , and to get by requires hard work. Bills to pay, sustenance to purchase and all else. A home, a place to stay, all real issues to discuss.

I was faced by a predicament, when I asked a suitor about this and it resulted in a big misunderstanding and shunning the topic, ignoring my calls and messages, all because he did not have access to what he thought I was demanding, and perhaps to make himself feel better, decided that I was being materialistic. I took great offense to this accusation. I tried to vindicate myself, making my points to no avail, so I left it. I really am not the rich divorcee who needs a man in my life and have the means to support him.Neither do I agree with a situation to that effect. I completely believe that a man should be able to provide better as there are roles each plays in a relationship.
I have so many complexities in my life structure, I just need to have a decent partner, who shares the same faith, who understands and is patient with my exuberance and sometimes over active joviality, someone balanced in mind and spirit. Someone who also can share the burden of finances. Men have pride that are too high at times that it creates a "tunnel vision" a women are made to seem, bossy.
This is not the case, women have an inbuilt God given mechanism to protect , an instinct of survival.

Then there is the case of dreams as opposed to realities. Actions as opposed to just words. Proof is in the pudding as someone used to say. Justification of not "loving" worldly goods, being non-materialistic in todays' world is a whole lot of nonsense. In our hearts we are not prioritising materialistic needs, we are not choosing avariciousness yet we do need to consider the financial aspects.
I know many single and financially secure women with lovely and sweet hearts that have been taken advantage of by such men with no sense of dignity or self-worth. Women who are prone to these “abuses” must become stronger to avoid getting hurt. And not be so gullible in matters of LOVE

I am hoping that with this openness, women will become better prepared and aware of this situation.

~LorraineNur~

Normative theories

Normative ethics: Virtue ethics: meta-ethics: descriptive ethics: so many branches of philosophical ethics. There is room for acceptance and communications regarding morality, values; prescriptive or descriptive.

As one evolves, under various rigours that this century is challenging us with; challenges which are self-imposed. Challenges which have been determined by society itself; should we not be able to accept thought diversity, which is also taught by scholars based on none other than their own assimilation of what is morally correct or incorrect, should we not then be able to be independent in our own free will to act upon what we say and do and be respected for it?

Why is this blog materialising? I have been inundated by criticism for over a year. All my life, I have been facing challenging situations which have molded me to who and what I am, which I believe is an evolved soul. In my recent commitment, I have had many discussions within many topics, all of which have been a target to banter , debate to prove me wrong, although my choices are recognised and "respected" I have been "educated" that I am always normative.

Not being a student or scholar of any one profession, neither al I schooled in psychology, I am naturally attracted to this topic as well as law, amongst various other subjects which interest me, which I wholesomely put to good use and try to to improve my life. This is prescriptive and descriptive way of living for me. Yet, I have still been coagulated as normative and been placed in a container of a person with no proper or strong , firm or consistent principles which I do not adhere to. Now, I start to study the source and subject of these remarks. I am not recognised neither am I utilised as an intelligent being. Am I such that all these years, I have been living wrongly? That for all my exposure and experiences in life, withstanding abuse and fighting for personal independence and facing fears, have all been to no avail? How depressing would that be?

I start to introspect, perhaps I made "mistakes", where for the subject, there can be no room for mistakes, calculate  and take no risks. Aha! Point one, ticked! I am a risk taker, daring but not foolish! Prepared to bear the circumstances of my actions.

Changes: I am not the same as I was 20 years ago, and hopefully as life evolves, so shall I, therefore I will be able to be aware and in charge of me in the NOW! Aha! Point two: subject is till stuck within the confinements of his own self worth based on thinking of people dead over 50 years.

Rationality: This depends on what our reality is. Mine is diversified. Hence, seems contradictive and inconsistent. We are consistent with what we create in our environment and within our circle only with things we can have control over. Outside changes may influence one's perception of how to re-act. Basically, being responsible for one's actions not matter the ordeal, problem or situation. Flexibility of the descriptive ethics, the scope of morals are wide.

Religious ethics: As I base most of my thought system on my chosen faith. I feel I am rightly guided, still with freedom to choose my paths of decision. Aha! Subject does not have one of these...neither is subject assuming to be atheist. Although many of subject's thoughts are based on intellects with religious views and faith they adhere to. Isn't that contradictive? Or is it choice?

In this short analysis, I must come to a conclusion. I have allowed myself a period of exposure to the thought patterns of self claimed intellectuals, who I have concluded, are great at reorganizing and applying old school thoughts, been able to "predict" outcomes from readable events based on facts and figures, yet , when it comes to personifying the mentors they uphold, it falls short, when people like myself challenge the "system".

In this New Age. where theories of Indigo and Crystals, psychic awakenings, the meta-physical can all be explained, how then can anyone function using theories of others who have departed this Earth so many years ago and understand this new era? In my view, unless, one holds onto, in my belief ,the anti-ageing theories of Al Qur'an, synonymous with muslims and Islam, applying and learning the attributes within, learning from it's history, personifying it's Author, it's messenger and all it encompasses, without being a religious buff; a book with so many knowledge imparted and revelations proven with technology , only now! 

I may be normative in my limited ability to properly describe what I intend to say, but surely I am describing and prescribing something which I know, works.

~Lorraine Nur~

To hear and heal

I see, I feel , I hear, I understand. Though frustration sets in , people have choice. People have mouths to speak, people can make mistakes and people must take responsibility for all actions which causes reactions. Therefore, think through your suggested actions based on all aspects of the human ability to make basic choices, weave the scene and picture the outcome, mentally prepare for every reaction and position yourself in the best role you perceive.

Love is a gift of sharing

Allah Ta'ala has given me a gift, to share.

I have a gift to share. each person I meet I care for and love, I share these feelings without hesitating. I joyfully give it out , all love and my self, to the extent of never thinking twice, I go with my gut feeling. If I shun away, it's not because I don't like someone, it's only because I feel uncomfortable, still I would gladly become acquainted , if allowed to be admitted.

Many people conceal this natural part of themselves for fear of giving the wrong impression, but when the intention is pure, why then should it be difficult or painful? Love is a glow that you cannot hide , it is a gift you should not deny, a precious commodity that has no price, a reward for patience, an overflow of blessings; a true and pure love comes from a pure soul. Nothing more and nothing less. It is as it is presented, as a gift, a sharing from Heaven.

In Heaven, only true, pure and unconditional love exists. It cannot be recreated or acted, it needs no words or form. This Heavenly love is not sensual or sexy, not lustful or demanding. This Heavenly love, of all natural souls, is a feeling unlike anything we can recreate. Hence, it is a gift.

I come into people's lives, I want to share this light of love, this inner glow which brings only happiness, through joy, smiles and laughter. It is unaffected by any circumstance or situation. It is just as it is meant to be, a genuine inclusion into that soul's life.

There are many people I have come in contact with, whom I assumed was my task and wards, these sad and dreary souls, looking for a ray of sunshine and hope. I blend into their lives, some accept me and stay forever my friends, some try to enclose me and imprison the feeling to have for themselves. Some wrongly mistaken this love for sexual advances and most are just happy to accept it as whatever it is, a feeling and a bonding.

I want to celebrate life with love, love and life. I want to smile and keep smiling through the thickets of the forests, the trees open up and reveal the sky. For me that is love , coming through in every direction, onto an open space in welcome.

Love love love the food of the soul.

~Lorraine Nur~

Nature and us

The childrens' smiles and laughter are the most important.

I glow each time my children and I have such an awesome day. Today, they had wondrous fun on a banana boat dragged by a jet ski.

They fell off in the middle of the sea and climbed back on again. They fly over the waters when they are on the jet skis, they show admirable courage and skill. A true freedom is experienced when one can achieve in extreme sports , especially at such young ages. Enjoying and having good times together, makes very precious memories. It binds and also increases self confidence.

The ride out to the island takes about 20 minutes by boat. Sometimes, the children use the jet skis back and forth to the mainland. I went on a jet ski for the second time in my life today, I also paddled in a small canoe and I swam in the sea. All this outdoors activities really invigorate me. The children love being outdoors getting rid of excess energy but also absorbing good negative ions , releasing the bad positive ions which cling to out body from the electronic devices we are exposed to every day.

I love sitting on the deck of the boat and feeling the waves crashing against the hull, looking towards the sea and meeting the sky, watching the sunset as the winds blow and the waves spray water. The scenery is never the same, the colours of the water and sky merge, with a yellow sunset. Oh! how amazing is nature.

I am experiencing life with a humble attitude and grateful thanks for being able to appreciate the amazing feeling of bonding with nature, sea, sky, sun and winds. I welcome the refreshing change from tall buildings, enclosed premises and smog.

I am looking forward to more boat trips to other islands further away, this part of Indonesia seems to suit me the best. There are 105 islands on a 45km stretch, all with blue water and white sand beaches. Most are uninhabited, some are resorts, some are private owned and some still have villages of fishermen living there.

I want to dive into the deep sea and relish the water and see the fishes as well as the coral reefs. The North waters are a protected natural environmental sea habitat.

Family ties

Family is the gift we have on Earth.

What would we be without our family and how can we not treasure the relationship? Our family are the bonds we have on the biological level, the first people who we learnt to have a support system with. If we have difficulty nurturing this bond, with love, understanding and respect; with tolerance and acceptance, how can we then build the bigger bond of the same qualities in humankind. on a global scale. How can we advice anyone about staying true and patient. People evolve and develop in life. With all life's experience we each become useful in service to each other. Everyone has a specialness, a uniqueness and each is divine created and all connected. If only we can see the minute links we all have to one another, and how each link then is connected to the entire sphere of life, we shall all be eternally grateful for one another, as souls in human form, travelling the "daimah" of life.

I have an intricate and confusing family, a detailed extended family, all whom I love and care for dearly. If one is sick, I would be concerned. there is no room in life with unconditional love to be egoistic, selfish or bitter. Because we are all different, evolve differently and at different paces. We all are learning.

God Almighty, He is the one we will all return to. The times ahead are times of changes. Changes are happening all around. Within these environmental changes, planetary movements, in it are all signs of His power, might and grace. We should be reminded through the signals given, that we are going to develop, become more knowing, believing and remembering Him and returning to him as one family state is the final lap we make.

Once, we were mere flashes of brilliant light. We were families on a non-physical level. Travelling on this journey, we have been clustered into physical families, yet the human species are one family from one source. Next part of the journey is determined by us, what and where we shall be, by His side again or not, is purely up to us. Let us make this short and tiring , but pleasant journey with little stresses and more love. Enjoin rich and positive thoughts, exercise patience and find time for Him and for family. Enrich our inner light and allow it to become the lighthouse and beacon for others to pursue. The next level of existence promises to be even better.

Peace, Love and Light to all.

Lorraine Nur, 2011

Fight for rights

 

‎"Fight for your rights or die trying. We came into existence for a reason, we should die for a better reason and cause. When a victim is tortured and doesn't die, that person has to raise and fight for the truth to be heard, and when the person dies, that soul has been given reprieve. In other words, in life one thing is certain, death is inevitable. A noble cause calls for noble people. Salute to those who fight and to those who died fighting a noble cause, and to those who remain fighting."

Lorraine Nur, 2011

Tap into your inner voice.....

 

‎"Tap into your inner voices, sieve the information and use the good for the Universal purpose of healing. If everyone endeavoured with an awareness that humankind cannot be enemies, we should forsake our lower selves and emanate the higher self."

There is so much beauty in our world. Look around you, every mountain any where is the same, any river, any seas , any oceans, the sky canopy is the same all over, the lands which supply our nutrients and the air we breathe. How can anyone justify that each of these are selfishly theirs alone. Hence, humankind makes up commercial properties and hoard wealth which is raped from the very lands and seas that we all share. Commercial businesses which inadvertently make us all "whores" and "slaves" to consumerism. Society is damned and salvation from this is almost impossible. Choice to go back to basics is a dream. It requires so much effort to cut away from all the conveniences humans have created. Ultimately, it has afforded us a loss of freedom as souls passing through this Earth only for a short time. Chained and bound to the callous world around. Does anybody realise when they look at the monuments, buildings, highways, rails and ports that we have imprisoned ourselves? Man-made beauty can never surpass the natural wonders of His creations. Does anybody realise that mankind has "covered" this beauty, has shielded the truth of our original existence in order to enslave us all? How can any modernisation tolerate inequality within the structures of society? Inequality in everything. Money buys fame and fortune creates enemies. However there are that many rich in the world, there are double the amount of poor. Society's imbalance once swept away by a natural occurrence will definitely put everything into perspective, wouldn't it? A mighty clash or crash onto our "world" as we know it will "force" us into awareness that what is real is not what we see. We, humankind, must realise that our worth by His eyes are not in the wealth which He Himself afforded us and we breach every promise to help and take care of each other. Power to self, they lose the effect when one is tired and hungry, so they create famines. Power to the people, cannot happen when education is weak, so they cut fundings, yet lie they will "look into the matter". Many children live and die, in young ages are killed because the defense is inadequate. Sinful gestures of powerful nations deploy tyrannical behaviour to undermine a nation’s right to exist. They will manipulate all world events in order to populate your mind to succumb and make you weak and degenerate models of humans.

In all efforts to regenerate the model human, humans must decide to rise against the mission of destiny, which is complete and utter destruction of this species by a certain force which penetrates our very system because we allow it to. So, fight, raise up your banners and instill the strength within yourself, empower yourself, reach out and spread the worldwide message, that LOVE supersedes and LOVE will conquer, LOVE takes no prisoners against their will, LOVE emanates the light of union because LOVE is the basic nutrient of each and every soul.

So, "Tap into your inner voices, sieve the information and use the good for the Universal purpose of healing. If everyone endeavoured with an awareness that humankind cannot be enemies, we should forsake our lower selves and emanate the higher self."

I believe in unconditional love for humankind.

I believe and have faith that my species cannot be so easily eradicated.

I believe in the power of LOVE.

~Lorraine Nur~

http://human-about.blogspot.com/2010_06_13_archive.html

http://humanityhealing.ning.com/profile/harmonicutopia

http://www.livingaslight.com/

http://www.divine-light-healing.com/000001985b0ce1e49/033776998c1492a1b/index.html

Conlon’s attempt to dishevel peace

There's an up rise of verbal muslims..creating tension by speech. I wholeheartedly believe that there is a play of coverage and press that sensationalises and gives speakers the platform, hence inciting aggression in communities. As a muslimah, learning and practising in Australia for 19 years, I led a peaceful life among fellow Australians who were not muslims, in peace and harmony. We had mutual respect for one another. I went through some harassment during the Gulf War days , was yelled at and ridiculed, but I did not retaliate. I felt that my substance as a human being , in behaving better would have a more positive effect. Our small muslim communities adhered to government rules and regulations. As long as nothing was against our faith, we were happy. Our community raised awareness for halal foods and endeavoured to build mosques and factories that supplied halal labels and we also worked together with large companies to provide halal endorsement for fresh meats. We did not intend on anything else but a good future and peace. As  a revert, I understood other's choice of religious beliefs as a personal choice. If anyone asked me about Islam , I would gladly share. If Jehovah Witness's came to my door, I was polite. Our community rose from a few families on the Central Coast to over 250. We were not aggressive nor we were misunderstood. We integrated well , leaving no one upset or angry, rather we grew in our relationships with our neighbours. An anti Islamic sentiment is now on the rise once again , claiming muslims as terrorists. This political play within a structure of true Islam does not exist. I do believe that the "extremists" are lost in what the true jihad is. People who are ignorant of the true teachings of Islam, are taking the text all out of context and blaspheming the entire belief system, it infuriates me but I understand that ignorance is bliss for many. I urge the speakers of the various groups to really think about the repercussions of their words, perhaps make changes in a wiser manner, not be dramatic and above all uphold the dignity of Islam, as muslims we have the choice of how we conduct ourselves in public, and as fellow muslims we must realise Islam means peace , submission to the will of God. That in Al Quran, we have the solution for many of today's crisis and problems. Propagation of Islam and shariah law cannot be enforced. Muslims with a real love for Allah Subhana wa Ta'ala, will work with better methods not over powering sentiments that create a distorted and negative image of what Islam is all about. There are signs that tell us about all the difficulties muslims will face in the world, other fractions in the global community may use these to create disharmony, for inevitably , not just muslims are the target but the entire human civilisation. Facts must be provided for my statements, hence I will not go into detail about all the man made manipulative troubles in the world today. God has His own plan, so muslim or not, we are all under His sovereign kingdom and if we choose not to be under His cover and protection, then we have only the one alternative, which is not a good one. God has given ample advice to mankind, receive it with gratitude, realise your own self worth and work towards a life to be in unison and harmony with Him and all creation. Muslims or not, we are all humanbeings, who live and die, and through life we prepare for the afterlife, which is the real life. You only get one chance at it, so better make the best of it. The Osamas, the Obamas, the Conlons and Basyirs will always be around, the choice to react is ours. If we want peace, then be peaceful. At this stage no one person can change the world, but what we can do is change ourselves , our perceptions and how we would react in the face of aggression. When one realises that self improvement benefits and shares, encourage and motivate others to do the same, then we can still have hope in this world, without vulgarity and insults, lies , degradation and dishonesty among people, communities and nations. If we care enough about quality life and ourselves, we should take note.May we all be blessed with peace, love, light and harmony. ~LorraineNur~