Have I been disillusioned all this time?

I once believed that the satan cannot imitate Rasulallah SAW in any form. I have seen a dream in which I was beside two men who pointed in a direction, and called out "Rasulallah, Rasulallah." I looked at and saw a form of a man with a cloak and turban, on a road in the times of when houses were made from mud, and on a dusty road. A desert environment. I also believe that I spoke to our Nabi SAW, when he SAW offered me reminders and the love for the ummah and do'a for the ummah and to remind the ummah to make taubat.That his SAW love and concern for me was genuinely felt, I would cry and my love and missing him greatly was raised to a level I was in tears till I felt so sad. I do believe that I spoke to members of the ahlul bayt and angels of the realms, all this I did through a chanced science I discovered, not learnt, called pendulum dowsing. I was at a low ebb and needed guidance in a time I had no one, so I did believe in the words of reminders and encouragements that today, my love and reverence are more than ever before. I do not say I doubt because of the positive feelings and of how I was able to come out of the depths of gloominess and have "wealth" of increased devotions, which inshaallah I shall never stop wanting to learn, and I used to say durood/shalawat upon Nabi SAW, and when the do'a would come back for peace and blessings for the ummah, I would shiver and tears roll down my cheeks, in a psychic presence with the energy of our Rasul SAW, who identified himself as such, the Nabi and Rasul of our times. How can I deny this had happened? When I feel/felt and "heard".... but one day, after a period of two years of living and knowing me and knowing these stories..... somebody close to me and part of the descendants al-Huseini, told me, that this could never have happened and that it was untrue! Ya Allah, who Knows best, how my heart is broken, from what I was told. Was I that impure and unchaste that I could not have had this experience? This was the feeling this descendant gave me. May Allah SWT have Mercy on us and may we be rightly guided.
(open to intellectual comments)This entire blog has the records of that journey….. I need someone to relate to me, how this could have been a trick or device of shaytan, when Allah SWT is Most Knowing of all secrets and by His SWT will, Allah SWT may allow anything to happen to a seeker. I am distraught.